WORRRRRD. this is the story of my life and my current problem. but fuck it, my temper comes and goes, i can’t stop it. i feel bad for a sec and then i get annoyed all over again when people KEEP turning shit on me. silly rabbits.
I have a short temper and I get offended real easily. I’m complicated. I’m loud, and I’m quiet. I don’t make sense, and so what if I mumble? Respect is key. I might feel bad for the things that I do, but to me, in any situation; there isn’t just one right person. There has to be faults in both. If you try to turn the tables and put it all on me, I might let it slide. Give me time, and my anger will only rise. I have a low bullshit tolerance. I x people out of my life as fast as I allow them in. I absolutely hate it when people lie to me. Especially when it’s about stupid things. If I am angry enough, I will call you out on it. If I just don’t give a flying fuck, I’ll go along with it, but silently laugh in your idiotic face. When more than one person walks out of your life — it’s got to mean something. Check yourself. I either talk a lot, or I don’t talk at all. I can’t read your minds, so please, don’t expect me to know what you want from me. You won’t understand me, so don’t make your quick presumptions. I won’t even bother trying to prove you wrong. If you’ve judged me, and not like who I am based upon god knows what, so be it. I could care less. If you can’t handle me at my worst, then you most definitely don’t deserve me at my best.
1- adv. algebra/o’brien, i just got transferred to this class, he’s a new teacher, hopefully he’s better than the shit math teachers we have. 2- honors modern world/slayton, ridiculously loaded class, slayton is cool but super anal. 3-honors english/caren, idk if why i freaked out before, caren is easy compared to heather and mr. c, haha. 4-chemistry/ms. k, she’s really chill and the class is pretty cool but i know it’s going to be such a hard class cause koivisto gives a shitton of work and it’s impossible to get an A. but i sit next to a cute boy :p 5- chinese/ms. liu, this class is a joke, it’s so easy and the teacher is weakkkkk but oh well, easy A. me and jess boss spend most of our time laughing at the teacher’s horrible teaching and funny accent. “you good you good you pretty!” and then after lunch, it’s piano til school ends. my piano schedule: mondays- italian art song vocal lab (basically vocal accompaniment), tuesdays- practice 2 hours then performance class, wednesdays- composition class -_- fml, thursdays- practice and i THINK i get out an hour early…, fridays- improv class with randy! yessss! and i also might take on jazz improv and try out for the jazz band :D
after warped i did nothing until august, when my cousins visited frm canada. they stayed in sf for a week and then we went on a tour bus trip to yosemite, vegas, arizona, and LA. we left on the day i was supposed to go to candlestick park for the FC barcelona/chivas game so i was kinda bummed but still stoked for LA. vegas was actually very fun too. i went to disneyland and met garvey, finally :) i was supposed to meet up with a ton of more people but it didnt turn out as planned. universal studios…sososo fucking happy that i ran intó all time low there. one of my fav bands and it made up for me not seeing em at warped. so even through the stomach flu and some ruíned plans, the week tour was veryyy fun and i do miss my cousins, especially mina. hopefully ill go up to ottawa soon! hmmm, i also went to fremont a LOT this summer and got closer to my friends there. i like hangíng out there, i feel more at home and in my own comfort zone with that group of people. thats pretty much it. one long, but short summer. it marked the end of freshmen year and the beginning of the real deal. school’s in less than 6 hours and helllll if i’m ready…wish me luck. goodbye summer, goodnight.
summer has come to an end. it has ended as quickly as it started, gone as fast as it came. summer wasn’t what i was expecting- i didn’t go to too many parties and i didn’t go out much. but i still had amazing highlights. let’s start with june 21st. wendy bought me tickets to the cab, since she knew i love them and she did too. i was beyond stoked. it was at this cute little venue in the castro, cafe du nord. perfect venue, not too crowded and stuffy. i met cash while i was waiting in line, proceeded to freak out, and then gave him the journal ive been keeping for a year or so. it had lyrics, poems, letters, journal entries, and songs i wrote for them in it. then i saw marshall and i had about 7 heart spasms and was too much of a pussy to call out his name…fml. on to the show: anarbor, eye alaska, the summer set, the secret handshake, and then the cab. i was literally dyyyying from the greatness of this lineup. afterwards, i met most of them but most importantly, i found alex and fought my way to him like a warrior. i love singer and i always will and meeting him was so surreal that i didnt know what to say. tongue tied. i almost cried like the first time i saw him play last year. but anyways, before i go into explicit detail of the whole night…basically i met the sweetest bands who make the best music and it completed my life a little bit. i also met hannah and alina in line :3 hmm, warped tour! im so bummed i only made it to the sf one (thus missing all time low, chiodos, and THE ADICTS D:) but sf was pretty great too. i hung out with keiko and later on with the fremont crew and thennn amor :) i saw underoath!!! so greattt, tdwp, adtr, a skylit drive, the maine, there for tomorrow, less than jake, 3oh!3, i set my friends on fire, and a lot more.. i met kennedy and pat from the maine while wálking towards the piers and i was so surreal happpyyy, theyre adorable and SO sweet. i met chris kamrada, my future husband, through a fence :3 oh and nat from 3oh!3 backstage… it was great.
Two gazed into a pool, he gazed and she,
Not hand in hand, yet heart in heart, I think,
Pale and reluctant on the water’s brink,
As on the brink of parting which must be,
Each eyed the other’s aspect, she and he,
Each felt one hungering heart leap up and sink,
Each tasted bitterness which both must drink,
There on the brink of life’s dividing sea.
Lilies upoin the surface, deep below
Two wistful faces craving each for each,
Resolute and reluctant without speech:—
A sudden ripple made the faces flow,
One moment joined, to vanish out of reach:
So those hearts joined, and ah were parted so.
- “An Echo from Willow-Wood” by Christina Rossetti